I have been reading the daily reflections for about 20 years now, I do not remember when they printed it but it was about 20 or 21 years ago. Prior to that I used the 24 hour a day. Since I have waffled back and forth, but today the Kelly Foundation sends it to my email every morning and I have become such am “E” person I have it all right here on my Mac. Once in awhile I put one up as a supplement to my Blog but today I want to comment on it. I hope you enjoy it as well.
DAILY REFLECTIONS FEBRUARY 7
A PATH TO FAITH
True humility and an open mind can lead us to faith, and every A.A. meeting is an assurance that God will restore us to sanity if we rightly relate ourselves to Him.
TWELVE STEPS AND TWELVE TRADITIONS, p. 33
My last drunk had landed me in the hospital, totally broken. It was then that I was able to see my past float in front of me. I realized that, through drinking, I had lived every nightmare I had ever had. My own self-will and obsession to drink had driven me into a dark pit of hallucinations, black-outs and despair. Finally beaten, I asked for God’s help. His presence told me to believe. My obsession for alcohol was taken away and my paranoia has since been lifted. I am no longer afraid. I know my life is healthy and sane.
Copyright 1990 ALCOHOLICS ANONYMOUS WORLD SERVICES, INC.
I believe each and every one of us can write this last paragraph, I was…..totally broken. I have gone through some ups and downs with my faith over the years. I can be tough on myself at times about it as well. My sponsor Joe O’ would say to me, “Danny, Faith without doubt is not faith”, all the while I would be thinking sure you can call upon God when you are hurting but now you have no faith! However, Joe O’ is right I am human and I will have the ups and downs. The key is to get back on the horse and ride, ride cowboy ride!
I look back and thank God for the strength to recover. Whether you utilize AA, NA, CR, RR, or your journey comes another way, the Spiritual path brings with it the inner joy that I sought after my whole life!