Happy, Joyous and Free

by Daniel · 2 comments

“Far away in the sunshine are my highest inspirations. I may not reach them, but I can look up and see the beauty, believe in them and try to follow where they lead.”  – Louisa May Alcott

When I first got sober the term “Happy, Joyous and Free” would totally rub me the wrong way.  Here I was struggling to get by day by day, I thought God left me, my family was skeptical again, my friends thought I needed to ease back a bit and I was confused.  But, something inside me knew that I was better, I had high hopes for life and I deserved to live better!

It was not until I began to experience recovery, that my spiritual awakening occurred.  I was sitting in a beginners recovery meeting and a person shared about their “Joy of Living” that it hit me.  I could not remember the last time I laid my head on the pillow and Prayed to God, Lord please do not allow me to awaken tomorrow!  It was at that moment that I knew that God did not quit on me, that my family wanted me sober, and that my friends, well, I hadn’t heard from them in awhile!

Joy, the inner peace that comes from my direct relationship with God.  Happiness was a feeling that I would experience but Joy, it was and is now a part of me.  I thank God on a daily basis for my life, through good and the not so good!

Peace,

Dan 🙂

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courtney January 31, 2010 at 5:41 pm

LIFE IS GOOD!! It’s been a while since I’ve prayed to god, “please, don’t let me wake up.”
My feet may not always hit the ground running in the morning but I am glad to be awake. I find my self making more efforts to make the day as good as it can be, rather than going back to bed to sleep it away. For a while I felt I was depressed and the only way to fix it was a prescription. Now I know, as hard as it may be sometimes, if i can keep my mind in a better place the rest of me will follow. Sometimes I ask god to help me keep good thoughts, somehow I am okay doing this now too. I used to feel guilty to ask god for help. I felt I didn’t deserve his help. I know I do now and I thank him all the time for EVERYTHING he has given me.

Liam February 1, 2010 at 7:56 pm

Dan,
That one really hit home for me. I too, remember praying not to wake in the morning. But even more I remember cursing God for allowing me to awake again, doomed to repeat my day yet again. As most of those days were back then just an endless life of despair, not knowing anything but the horrors of addiction I was caught up in. It was like the movie Groundhogs Day but nobody was saved, fell in love, or anything positive at all. I heard the “Happy, Joyous, and Free thing only after being clean for a while and it still really angered me and I just was not feeling it. I think it was explained to me best by Jason B. from MN. who told me .. “happy” my life had changed some. Joyous sometimes because of the miracles I get to see everyday. The Free thing was even better… FREE EVERYDAY from active addiction because of the love of a higher power who still cared for me even when I didn’t.

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